The happiness is others' ,not mine!

Maybe I have been changing! When I stand there, I feel that my whole body is full of frastration! I'm tired! Very very tired!
Do you know what I experice? Which is happy? Which is unhappy?Maybe, you was not concerned about me at all !Because you are very confident that I will be always there to wait for you! But, you don't know how pain my heart! I watch the beautiful snow by myself! My head is filled with your image! Without you,I treat one day as one year! Then, can you understand what I have felt? Can you know what I have think?
Yesterday, I took part in my friend's birthday ∵, they were so excited that they didn't find my tear! I admit I miss you! At that time , I am lonely! Lonely! Lonely! Everyone is happy, but , I am out of them! Nobody can tell me what do you think, and who do you miss! Just only my own thinking? No! No! No! I can't believe and I can't accept it! Tear is full of my eyes! Ok! I always devote ,but, what do you do? I am tired! I am really really tired! So, I want to give up waiting for you, and I let you go! As if the sand is out of my hands! Wind is so soft, but, your heart is so rigid! I can't bear this situation! Maybe I am really wrong!
If you can get welfare, I Will smile ! I also bless all my wishes to you! Please keep promises to me: you should be sure you are much more cheerful and happier than me forever!
Please ! Please! Please!

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